Student Poetry This Project WR245 More Home		Clair M. Varnell Doran Twenty-five years we indulged love, together raising three bold, minimally challenging, sons. Built our house, our lives, on careful plans, solid as granite. We did not waver, for our boys, we couldn’t take risks like when we first met and risked everything, by eloping, indulging our lust and each other, only wavering slightly before you forfeited three years of university scholarships carefully earned. Lacking adequate reasons, leaving college knowing coming seasons lacked money to return. We took risks and lived on love. We grew careful not to forfeit security or further indulge caprice. You got a job, I worked three. Not once did we consider a waiver from labor. Sometimes you wavered exhausted, pregnant with our sons, but grasped your stone goals: mothering three boys, working, taking only risks with your health. You would not indulge idleness, checking off boxes carefully from our “goal list” until we had it all. An acre full of landscaping, boat, big flag-pole (flag waving), cars, house, 60” TV. We were indulgent parents, sparing nothing for our sons. But somewhere there lurked dark risks compelling you. I found out at three A.M. one morning. You came home three years ago to say you never loved me. Our careful plans just some charade. Alone, you took risks and were in love with another. No wavering note in your voice, it was final. Our sons were mine. Your high heels clicked away to indulge some fantasy three years in the making. A waiver from sanity so carefully hidden that by comparison we never took risks. Maybe I was blinded by indulgence. Margaret Doran lives in rural Oregon in the foothills of the Cascade Mountains. Though currently (officially) unemployed, she and her husband produce grass roots concerts and she builds affordable websites for small businesses. You can read some of Margaret's classroom poetry by using the graphic links below.
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